Overall, we're doing fine.
Overall, we are blessed.
Overall, we have more good days than bad.
BUT... sometimes there are days like today that knock you back a bit.
There are days when the grief of the world around you- recounting tragedy from a horrific moment in our nation's history- takes you down a slippery slope of sadness.
There are moments when you see pregnant women or new babies in passing and realize that you are a mere 13 days away from your due date... and all of that hurt bubbles up to the surface again.
There are times when loving friends around you ask the innocent question, "How are you doing?", and you answer honestly... with tears and truth flowing faster than you can wipe them up.
There are afternoons when you are left making hard decisions about your mother's long term care and you are just sick of being a grown-up. And in that same afternoon you get sucked in to the vortex of sadness over her condition and you miss your old mom and you just want to go back to a time when she rocked you in that big (ugly?) yellow chair.
There are times when you can't remember something from your family's history and you want to pick up the phone to ask your dad... only to have your heart leap in your throat as you remember.
And there are weeks when you fall out of a healthy routine because of a ridiculous injury that occurred after cutting an avocado and unintentionally stabbing your hand and needing stitches. So you sit on the couch and allow yourself one more Fresh Prince episode and spiral down toward self-pity and frustration.
And days like this are real. And are painful. Both literally and physically thanks to my hand. And I share all of these thoughts not to have you on red-alert for my mental health, but to say that I'm sure I'm not alone. Sadly, I know too many who are hurting in their hearts, their lives, their families. Who knows what their trigger may be- 9/11? a Hallmark ad? a life event?- but when their trigger occurs... they, too, spiral.
Give grace, share love, be patient... we never know what sort of battle someone is facing.
Unless, of course, they are ridiculous enough to post it on their blog.