A bit of Bible background: Jesus went to visit some gals- Mary and Martha. Mary "got it", and spent time sitting at the feet of Jesus and enjoying being with Him. Martha, however, was more pre-occupied with making sure "stuff" was ready for Jesus' visit. She wasted time she could have spent in the presence of God by cooking and cleaning. More info? Check the story out here or here.
I live with a schizophrenic view of neatness. I was raised in a home that was BEYOND clean and organized. I tend to think that my cluttered-ness is a form of childhood rebellion.
On the flip side, I can't stand clutter. (See above: raised in a home that was BEYOND clean and organized.) I feel like I handle life better when everything is in it's place. I have a love affair with my label maker and Rubbermaid bins that is often unhealthy. No shopping experience brings me greater joy than stores like "The Container Store" or "Hold Your Own"... and when Oprah gave away new closet systems? Sigh... a dream.
But in reality, I am a cluttered girl. I am a hoarder of memories... I have boxes and boxes of pictures, old letters, and things from days gone by. I have realized recently how silly some of my hoarding is and have purged loads- purses I won't use again, things I was saving for projects I honestly know I won't complete (that topic alone is a post for another day), shoes that aren't going to be worn, magazines I thought I would re-read... stuff like that. But honestly? I have a LOT of stuff. As my heart has realigned in the last few years, my love of "things" has shifted- but I've still got a lot of them.
Herein lies the problem... I have a lot of junk in my house... but I hate the junk. I also let it pile up, but can't stand that it piles up, and I go on a bender cleaning. And such benders put me in horrible moods in the moment (sometimes), but leave me with great moods when I'm done cleaning. My friend Krista said today (while we were talking about this whole phenomenon) that maybe it's possible to have a Mary-Heart while I'm doing Martha-Activities... and honestly, y'all, I don't. Sometimes in the moment of the routine (dishes, laundry) I can be in that zone... but when I tend to clutter that has gotten overwhelming, the Mary-Heart is gone.
So here is my question to you- how do you deal with mess? How is your heart in the midst of it? Do you like it? Loathe it?
Fill me in people... I need your wisdom.